stare into the sun

I am still among the land of the living, to those that have been curious. I also now have the internet, which means my life has leveled up! I am making a return to blogging as of now, though I'm not quite sure what sort of direction I want to take my blog in now. I'd like to do start doing more artistic, crafty things. I have a scanner now, so I guess thats another point on my technology card (and a cellphone? are you kidding me?) We shall see how events unfold! 

The last few months, I have been struggling. My life has been nothing but school work school work school work. Doing the exact same thing everyday for months on end wears on the spirit. In addition to this, my mother is sick. I am missing all my friends who have flown off to the edges of the world like crazy. I even miss my friends that live in town that I rarely see. 

And winter is cold and white and lonely. This time of year, my brain dies and shrivels to dust. It will bloom again when the flowers do. Its the hardest thing of all to deal with, simply because its like a magnifying glass for all the other awful things that are happening in my life. If I wasn't doomed to spend 5 months of every year being depressed and cynical and angry I might be able to cope with all the other stuff life tosses my way a bit better. 

Anyways, that is all for now friends. Just wanted to say I am here, I am alive. And there will be more words soon. Always more words.

XO

somebody cure the skies

Today has been rather wonderful so far, despite the fact that it began for me at 7am. Or perhaps its so lovely because it began at 7am. I woke up to kisses and coffee and sunshine, and took the bus downtown to Water Street West to get the last part of my TB skin test, a tetanus shot and some forms signed by the oh-so-sweet nurse Stacy. I love that particular part of downtown so much, and its a shame that I never go there. I still haven't been to the train museum, and I can never seem to get down there when the antique shops are open, but I want to explore both in the near future!

Afterwards, I decided to treat myself to a good breakfast, it being 9am by this point, and my belly still empty. So I dove into Atlantic Place, picked up this month's issue of Wired (James Franco. IUDs. Medical ethics. This issue was more or less made for me!) and went to Cora's, where I had some delicious combination of cottage cheese, a poached egg, toast and of course DELICIOUS FRUIT. It bore the oh-so-cute title of "Peggy's Poached". I was looking for something light and delicious without any grease, and it was pretty much perfection. 

It pretty much looked exactly like that, except with more nectarines! MMMM NECTARINES <3

One thing that - well, I can't say "bothered" exactly, since nothing could cramp my style today, really - but amused me, I guess, was the INSANE weather. When I left my house this morning, I wore shorts and a t-shirt. It was 22 degrees and sunny out. When I left Cora's, it was pouring outside - like the sky had basically just ripped open and flooded the streets. You know the sort of rain where you stand outside for under a minute and you're drenched to the skin. This went on for about an hour or so. By the time I got halfway home on the bus, the sun was crawling out from behind the clouds again and the sky was blue. Its been raining on and off since, really. So weird. St. John's, your skies are ill and confused.

I've spent my time home watching Weeds and doing laundry. I have also enveloped a special special to be mailed to Ms. Jarl very soon! I had funny times at the Post Office buying the envelope, they are so nice there! 

So all and all, I had a good day. This is what you do when you have a silly schedule and the weather is schizophrenic - keep a smile on and make the best of it. It was really a beautiful day. 

What's your favorite thing to do alone on a summer's day? 

XO

seeds.

Yes, it has been ages. I have no internet and school is out so I very seldom find myself online these days. This doesn't bother me too much, I can do everything I want to do on the internet in about 15 minutes flat. Facebook? Friends' blogs? News? Done. I'm not a big internetter, I'm afraid. But I've been having a good life offline - lots of books and love and movies and such. I love break, its gorgeous. I got excellent marks on my second semester of university and summer is slowly crawling towards me. Life feels pretty good.

I've been reading lots and lots lately. It feels pretty good. Here are some books I've read over break so you can all giggle at me:

"Emily of New Moon" by L. M. Montgomery.
"The Other Boleyn Girl" by Phillippa Gregory.
"Utopia" by Thomas More.
"Tropic of Capricorn" by Henry Miller.
"The Last Unicorn" by Peter S. Beagle (FINALLY!!! Allan lent me his copy and it was seriously everything I hoped it would be... so beautiful. Read it right now.)

I've been a busy little bee. Some great books, some trashy romantic historical fiction (love them), some other stuff that falls pretty well in the middle.

Also... I'm growing a pretty tea plant! I will post pictures here someday if I ever have the means to. It was one of my summer goals to grow something and it is sprouting all green and beautiful so I am very pleased.

Now, some 30 day movie challenge? Think so. I know its been ages but I will only do three. Needs to milk this for all its worth, hehehe.




DAY 18: THE FUNNIEST MOVIE YOU'VE EVER SEEN


"Wet Hot American Summer", 2001.

This movie pretty much defines mine and Allan Ford's friendship. Its about the last day of summer camp in the '80s, and stars a lot of the old school Saturday Night Live cast and lots of other pretty hilarious people. Its absolutely ridiculous and pretty much makes milk and other fluids come out of my nose. I've seen it about 15 times but it still absolutely kills me. If you have a twisted, silly sense of humor I think you'd feel the same. Also, a great summer movie. I've begun harassing Allan to watch it with me again already.










DAY 19: THE MOVIE THAT SCARED YOU THE MOST

"The Ring", 2002.

Okay, in my defense I first saw this movie when I was in grade eight, but for the first time in my life I was scared to sleep in the dark, and a little freaked out by TVs. No horror movie has ever freaked me out more. Also, as far as j-horror remakes this one is pretty great. Naomi Watts is awesome and the cinematography - all the grainy black and blueness of everything - was so eerily beautiful. This movie also kicked off my obsession with j-horror originals that lasted many years. Most are silly, but I've found some gems. Also, the original is particularly creepy. Great horror movie.









DAY 20: A MOVIE YOU WISH MORE PEOPLE HAVE SEEN


"The Dreamers", 2003.

This movie is delectable, and I've only met maybe like 3 people in my life that have seen it. So underrated, in my opinion. Its set in the 1960s in France, with the riot of 1968 as a backdrop for the film's events. It focusses on three friends - an American and two French siblings - who are students and film buffs, and much of the film is composed of clips from famous old black and white films that the friends are reenacting or remembering. The acting is gorgeous, and its incredibly sexy and funny and sad. A bit incestual, but its done tastefully and adds a lot to the film's story. I can definitely recommend. One of my favorites.









Thats all for today. I am at Mullock currently with Daniel my love, who yesterday purchased the Krupp diamond for me, or the most inexpensive alternative he could find at least. It is lovely. I am having a most wonderful Sunday, and I hope that you are too.


XO